PIC ON DAY 1

AH BEE AND AH GIRL :)

AT GRANDMOTHER HOUSE BAI NIAN !!

30 January 2009

LOLS !! I KNOW MY BLOG IS ROTTING SOON !!
SO HERE I AM TO BLOG !!

DURING CHINESE NEW YEAR DIDNT REALLY WENT OUT TO BAI NIAN !!
HMM !! OH YA I AM BACK WITH MY EX LE !!
HOW SHOULD THE JOURNEY GOES , WELL , I DONT KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT ,.
ANYWAY REALLY HAD MUCH FUN SPENT WITH HIM , SERIOUSLY :)
WILL UPLOAD THE PHOTO WHEN I AM HOME !! BECAUSE I AM AT OFFICE WORKING NOW !
LOLS !! TONIGHT WILL BE WATCHING MOVIES WITH MY BABY AND HIS FRIENDS !!
ANYWAY BABY FRIEND WIFE JUST GAVE BIRTH THIS MORNING !! WHOO ~~ ENVIOUS MAN !! NEXT WILL BE MY TURN !! LOLS , JOKES !! BABY WILL BE THE BABY GOD FATHER !!
THAT MEA I AM THE ' GOD MOTHER ' ? HAHAS !! K LA GUESS I WILL BLOG TILL HERE ,.
LAZY TO CONTINUE WRITING LE :)

LOOKING FORWARD TO VALENTINE!!

LOLS I KNOW I BIT KIASU ,
NEW YEAR HAVEN PASS DEN WANT VALENTINE LOLS
HMM , LOOKING FORWARD FOR IT IS NOT BECAUSE SPENDING
WITH THE ONE I LOVE OR WAD SO EVER !! IS BECAUSE I WILL BE GOIN TO A 'DINNER AND DANCE' LOLS !!! THAT DAY FASTER COME :) HOPE TO GET A FEW ASSIGNMENT FOR SHOOTING !! HEHES !! ANYWAY TWO WEEKS LATER GUESS WILL BE TAKING MY
PHOTO SHOOTING PHOTO BACK :") SHALL UPLOAD THE PHOTO WHEN I GET IT :)

FREE LIFES !!

DIDNT WENT TO WORK YESTERDAY AND TODAY ,.

HMM YTD CHAT HIM MR WU HUN LEONG AGAIN , THIS TIME DIDNT

REALLY CHAT LONG CAUSE SOMEONE WAS A LITTLE TIRED !! HAHAS ,.

SIANS NA !! HMM SOMEONE MAKE FUN OF ME IN MY TAG HUH !! LIMJIAQI !!

ANYWAY, CHINESE NEW YEAR COMING LE !! LOOKING FORWARD TAKING ANGBAO

AR !! HAHAS !! WILL BE TAKING FRM MR WU !! LOLS !!

OH YA REMEMBER I WILL BE TAKING HIS PHOTO FROM HIS FRIENDSTER AND UPLOAD INSIDE AFTER TAT WILL WRITE DOWN HIS INFORMATION HAHAS !!! SO GALS THAT ARE AVAILABLE YOU CAN COME MY BLOG AND GET HIS NUMBER !!! LOLS !!!!

SIANS NOTHING ELSE TO WRITE LE , NOT NOTHING TO WRITE IS DONNO WHAT TO WRITE !! BYE~~

19th January 2009

HMM, HAD MY SHOOTING ON SATURDAY IT WAS FUN BUT TIRING
I WAS THERE FROM 11.30 TILL ABOUT 5 IN THE AFTERNOON WHOO !!!
WILL PUT IN THE PIC WHEN I GET THOSE PICTURE:)
ANYWAY KNOW ONE GUY THROUGHT A FRIEND OF MINE YESTERDAY,
KNOW THIS RUBBISH GUY WILL BE LOOKING AT MY BLOG !!
LOLS !! JUN LEONG !! READING RIGHT !!
LOLS YESTERDAY WE CHATTED RUBBISH FOR THREE HOURS !!!
FROM 12 PLUS TILL 3 IF I M NOT WRONG !!
HAHAS !! TOTALLY RUBBISH LO !! HMM , KINDA WASTE MY TIME LA TALKING TO HIM!!
'' FAKE ! KNOW HE BE READING THAT WHY I WROTE LIKE THIS''
SIANS LA NOTHING TO DO IN THE OFFICE NOW !! PLAYING STRATEGY GAMES ALL TO
PASS TIME ,. 3 MORE HOURS BEFORE I COULD END MY WORK !! TIRING !!
SHALL CARRY ON BLOGGING PERHAPS AT NIGHT OR WHEN I FREE :)

JUN LEONG !! I END BLOG LE DONT NEED CARRY ON READING !! RUBBISH MAN !! LOLS !! JOKES AND SMILE :)

16th January 2009

IN THE OFFICE NOW !!


SO BORING NOW , NOTHING MUCH FOR ME TO DO ,
HAVING MY SHOOTING TOMORROW LE !! ARGHH !!
SCARE LA !! QUITE TROUBLESOME LO !! NEED BRING ALOT OF STUFF!!
YESTERDAY WENT TO ISHAN WITH PHILIP AND HIS FRIEND GO SHOP FOR CLOTHES ,.
LOLS QUUITE FUNNY LA YESTERDAY , KEEP QUARREL WITH HIM CAUSE OF CLOTHES !!
HE KEEP ASK ME TO TRY TRY TRY !!! CRAZY LA HIM ,. AFTER BISHAN HE SENT ME TO
YISHUN AS MY MUNMMY AND I HAVE FACIAL APPOINTMENT OVER THERE :) FINISH AT AROUND 9 PLUS HE CAME FETCH US BACK ,. BUT BEFORE I WENT HOMEWE WENT TO MEET
UP HIS FRIEND SLACK AT TRIPLE 8 THEN WENT TO A INDUSTRIAL PARK TO LEARN TO DRIVE MANUAL CAR HAHAS !! WHOOHOO !! I KNOW HOW TO DRIVE MANUAL LE !!!
HAAPY HAPPY !! QUITE EASY DE LA :) AFTER THAT OME CHAT WITH HIM ON PHONE AWHILE DEN SLEEP LE :) MORNING HE CAME FETCH ME TO WORK :) THANKS YA :)!!!

WHY AM I STILL THINKING OF HIM! WHEN HE HURT ME SO DEEPLY !!
I REALLY MISS HIM ALOTS ! I REALLY MISS HIM ALOTS !!

15th January 2009

DIDNT WENT TO WORK AGAIN TODAY!!
TOOK MC AS MY BOSS WANT ME TO CLEAR MY MC AS SOONAS POSSIBLE
AGAIN HAHAS !! HMM , TODAY HAD ONE DREAM !! I DREAM OF HIM !! HIM AGAIN !!!

THE DREAMS IS LIKE '
I MET UP WITH HIS COUSIN AT NIGHT HAD A CHAT ALL ABOUT HIM,
DEN HIS COUSIN TOLD ME TO CALL HIM , HE TOLD ME THAT HE WANTED TO CALL ME
ALL THE LONG BUT JUST THAT HE DONT DARE , IN THE END I JUST WOKE UP !!'
ARGHH !! I STILL REMEMBER HE CAN CONTROL HIS DREAMS HE EVEN TEACH ME HOW TO CONTROL DREAMS !! HAIIS ,. !!'

I REALLY MISS HIM ALOT OUT OF THE SUDDEN !!

SINCE I HAVE NOTHING TO DO ,
SUDDENLY FEEL LIKE WRITING OUT PROMISES THAT HE BROKE :
1.NEVER LEAVE ME
2.LOVE ME , ONLY ME
3.GO JAPAN NEXT YEAR
4.GO BINTAN(if not wrong) DURING DECEMBER 2008
5.TAKE FLYER TOGETHER
6.WATCH MOVIES TOGETHER
AND ALOT MORE !!
WHY !! WHY I CAN KEEP ALL THE PROMISES THAT I MADE BUT HE CANT !!
ALL I WANT IS A SIMPLE RELATIONSHIP AND HE KNOW !! BUT WHY CANT HE GIVE ME A
SIMPLE LIFE !! INSTEAD OF GIVING ME A SIMPLE LIFE HE AME AND MESS UP MY LIFE !!
WHY IS HE SO SELFISH !! WHY IS HE SO BASTARD !! I WANT TO HATE HIM !! FORGET HIM !!
BUT I CANT !! TILL NOW I STILL HAD THE AMULET HE GAVE ME AND A PHOTO OF HIS
IN MY WALLET !! HAIIS !! I WILL ONLY TAKE IT OUT IF I GO INTO ANOTHER RELATION ,.

14th January 2009

DIDNT WENT TO WORK TODAY ,
SLEPT FROM PREVIOUS NIGHT AT 12 PLUS TILL TODAY AFTERNOON
ABOUT 2 OR 3 LOLS ,. LOLS ,. I KNOW I PIG LA , HMM ,.

OH YA !! DONNO WHY TODAY I KEEP THINK OF HIM !! F**K LO ,.
I THOUGHT I THIS FEW WEEK ,DAYS NEVER GO THINK WILL FORGET HIM LE !!
BUT I WAS WRONG !! F-ING WRONG !! I STILL CANT FORGET HIM !! HAIIS !!
WHAT TO DO !! ANYONE TEACH ME CAN !!

AT NIGHT AROUND 6PLUS WENT TO HAD DINNER WITH MY FAMILY ,
AND THEN ABOUT 10 WENT TO HAD SUPPER AGAIN , LOLS !! GUESS I GROWING
FAT SOON !!! ROARS !!!

13th January 2009

NOTHING MUCH TO BLOG ABOUT :)

12th January 2009

TODAY I DIDNT WORK !!

11th January 2009

WOKE UP IN THE AFTERNOON , FIRST THING KNOW WHAT I DID ?
I RUSH INTO THE TOILET AND VOMITED !!! GUESS IS BECAUSE I ATE
SOMETHING WRONG ,. VOMITED FOR THE WHOLE DAY !! ROARS ,.
FEELING SO UNWELL ALL OVER !! WOKE AT 3 AND SUDDENLY REMEMBER
NEED TO COLLECT DADDY CAK AT3.30 SO IMMEDIATELY I WENT TO BATH
AND WENT DOWNSTAIR TO COLLECT IT ,. AROUND 6 PLUS PHILIP CAME AND WE WENT TO YISHUN TO HAD DINNER WITH MY FAMILY :) REACH HOME AT 10 !! HE WAS AT MY HOUSE TILL 12 PLUS , BECAUSE TOGETHER WE PUT CANDLES ON THE CAKE AND LIGHT IT , DEN GO INTO MY DADDY ROOM AND SANG A BIRTHDAY SONG FOR HIM !! LOLS HE LOOK SO SURPRISE LO '!! HAHAS !!

10th January 2009

WENT FOR MY INTERVIEW TODAY,
THINK COUNTED THAT I PASS ?
LOLS HAVING SHOOTING ON THIS
COMING SATURDAY ,. ROARS !!

REALLY THANKS PHILIP FOR ACCOMPANYING ME THERE ,. ACTUALLY HE PARKED AT
ROADSIDE CAUSE WE THOUGHT VERY FAST ONLY ,. SO HIS FRIEND STAY IN THE CAR AND WAITED ,. WHO KNOW SO LONG ,. SO WE CALLEDHIS FRIEND AND ASK THEM TO WAIT FOR US AT CINELEISURE ,. LOLS DEN PHLIP AND I WAITED FROM 3 TILL 7 !!! AND HE DIDNT EVEN COMPLAIN LOLS ,. WHEN IT MYTURN TO BEING INTERVIEW I WAS F - ING NERVOUS ,.
I WENT IN AND KNOW WHAT THE INTERVIEWER TOLD ME ? THAT GUY OUTSIDE DE IS YOUR BOYFRIEND ?HE IS HANDSOME,. LOLS !! TODAY WAS LIKE DAMN FUNNY , ALOT PEOPLE THOUHT THAT HE IS MY BOYFRIEND JUST BECAUSE HE HELP ME TAKE MY THING AND WE WRE LIKE SO CLOSE,. OH YA BTW I HIGHLIGHTED MY HAIR RED !! :)AND PHILIP HIGHLIGHTED GOLD !!
AFTER MY INTERVIEW WE WENT TO CINELEISURE TO FIND HIS FRIEND , THOUGHT OF GO K BOX AT ORCHARD DE BUT IN THE END WENT TO BUGIS TOP ONE :) HAHAS ,. WENT TO FUSION TO PLAY POOL FROM BOUT 10 PLUS TILL 12 DEN WE HEADED BACK TO TOP 1 AND ASK IF THERE IS VACANCY LE ,. SANG FROM 12 PLUS TILL 5 PLUS ,. WALKING BACK TO HIS CAR , I TOOK THE CAR KEY FROM HIM AND TOLD HIM I WANNA DRIVE FOR A SHORT DITANCE SO I ASKED HIS FRIEND TO WAIT AT ONE SIDE WHILE I N HIM GO GET HIS CAR N DRIVE ,. LOLS ,. REACH HOME AT SIX AND WENT TO SLEEP !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

9th January 2009

TOMORROW COMING !!
NERVOUS FOR MY MODEL INTERVIEW LA !!
ROARS !! HOPE INTERVIEW PASS !! HAHAS !!

WELL,YTD NIGHT DIDNT REALLY DO MUCH , WENT TO MY GRAND MUM HOUSE
AT MARSILING TO PASS HER MONEY :) AFTER THAT MY GOD MUM CAME DEN WE WENT TO MY ANOTHER AUNTIE HOUSE TO PLAY WITH MY NEPHEW !! HE IS SHOO CUTE !! LOLS !!
WAITING FOR CHINESE NEW YEAR COME TO SEE MY NEPHEW AGAIN :)
HOW I WISH I HAVE BABY NW HAHAS !! COMFIRM VERY CUTE DE LO !!

ANYWAY, NOT SURE IF WANT TO GO HIGHLIGHT MY HAIR OR MEET JIA LONG AND HIS FRIEND !! SIANS SIA !! HIS FRIEND STAY JURONG WHILE WE STAY WOODLAND !! FAR LA THE DISTANCE !!

8th January 2009 part 1

I REALISE I DON THINK OF HIM MUCH LE:)
ANYWAY I AM HAVING MODEL INTERVIEW
ON THIS COMING SATURDAY !!
NERVOUS NERVOUS !!
HOPE I CAN PASS !! WANNA TAKE MODELLING
AS A PART TIME JOB :) PARENT ALSO APPROVE !!

WELL YESTERDAY AFTER WORK DIDNT GO OUT ,.
INTEND TO SPENT MORE TIME WITH MY FAMILY ,
DEN MY FRIEND . ONLY TILL NOW DEN I REALISE THAT
FAMILY ARE MORE IMPORTANT THEN FRIENDS ,.
FROM NOW I WILL BE A GOOD GIRL :)
DADDY'S BIRTHDAY COMING LE . WHICH IS ON NEXT MONDAY!
HAHAS YTD JUST WENT TO ORDER A BIRTHDAY CAKE LOLS !!
INTEND TO GIVE DADDY SURPRISE ON SUNDAY NIGHT ,. LOLS !!
LOOKING FORWARD ON SUNDAY HAHAS !! GONNA SMASH CAKE ON
DADDY FACE WONDERING HIS EXPRESSION !! HAHAS !! I LOVE MY DADDY LA !!

WILL BE MEETING JIALONG THIS FRIDAY AND HIS FRIEND WAD JUN LONG DE:)
BORING LA NOW !! ROARS NOTHING MUCH FOR ME TO DO :)

7th January 2009

NO LONGER NEED HIS EXPLANATION !!!
EVEN EXPLAIN LE IS ALSO BULLSHIT !!
A NEW YEAR WITH A NEW START YA :)
BACK TO HOW CHEERFUL AND ACTIVE I USED TO BE ,
NO LONGER FELT ANYTHING FOR HIM ,.
YOU GUYS MUST BE WONDERING HOW I MADE IT RIGHT :)
BECAUSE I THINK LE
WOULD A GUY WHO LOVE YOU
-LIE TO YOU ?
-HIDE THINGS FROM YOU ?
LOLS ,. GUYS ARE ALL THE SAME ,.
INFRONT OF YOU THEY SAY TILL HOW MUCH THEY LOVE YOU ,.
BUT BEHIND YOU ? WHO KNOWS WAD THEY DID?
AM I RIGHT GIRLS ?
HAHAS !! I WILL LEARN TO BE MORE SMART !!
NO LONGER SHED TEARS FOR A GUY SO EASILY :)
I WILL LEARN TO BE MORE INDEPENDENT DEN BEFORE !!
II PROMISE !! NEVER FALL FOR A GUY SO EASILY AGAIN LE !!
ONE MORE THING !! I WONT BELIEVE IN GUY SWEET TALK !!
HAHAS !! SWEET TALKER GUY ARE JUST A LIER !!
I DON WANT ANYMORE 'MATURE GUY'

6th January 2009

I STILL WAITING FOR HIS EXLANATION
EVERYDAY I BEEN WAITING JUST FOR A SHORT
EXPLANATION THAT ALL I ASK FOR , IS THAT SO DIFFICULT ?

DIDNT KNOW WHY CANT I JUST FORGET ABOUT HIM,
AFTER ALL HOW HE TREATED ME ,. HOWI WISH THERE
A DRINK WHICH CAN DRINK LE FORGET THE PAST ,. HAIIS ,.
WHY MUST HE BE SO JUE !! WHY MUST HE BE SO HEARTLESS !!
AM I THAT IRRITATING TO HIM ? I JUST MISS HIM THAT ALLS ,.
REQUEST FOR A MEET HE DONT WANNA TURN UP ,
A EXPLANATION HE ASO DON GIVE ,.
WHY IS HE RUNNING AWAY , AVOIDING ME WHEN THINGS HAPPEN ,.
I HAVE ALREADY FACE IT ALONE LE , WAD ELSE HE EXPECT ,.
BECAUSE OF HIM , I QUARREL WITH MY PARENTS ,.
MY PARENTS SAY ME DON KNOW HOW BE A GIRL FRIEND STILL
GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP FOR WAD . GUESS THEY WERE RIGHT .
I STILL YOUNG , MUST I REALLY GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP ?
DONT HAVE GUY WILL I DIE ?
WHY MUST I NEED A GUY ?

ANYWAY HAVE TO THANKS PHILIP YTD FOR ACCOMPANYING MI
THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT ,. WE MET UP AT 9 TILL 12 PLUS ,.
HE BROUGHT ME TO WOODLAND JETTY THERE TO TALK AFTER THAT
TO TRIPLE 8 TO EAT STINGRAY ,. HE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME WHEN I M DOWN ,.
HOW I WISH 'HE' THE ONE BY MY SIDE ,. I REALLY MISS HIM ,.
TODAY TOOK CAB TO MY WORKPLACE , WHEN TOOK OUT MY PURSE AND
OPEN IT ,. KNOW WAD THE AMULET HE GAVE EME WITH THE SWEET WRAPPER
AND A PHOTO OF HIS FELL OUT FROM MY PURSE !! IS THAT A SIGN !
ASKING ME TO GIVE UP ON HIM ? FORGET ABOUT HIM ?

REMEMBER THE AMULET HE GAVE ME , HE SAY IT WAD THE FIRST TIME OR SECOND
THAT HE EVER GET FOR A GIRL , PERHAPS IS ANOTHER LIE OF HIS ,.
BUT ATLEAST HE HAD THE HEART ,. HAIIS , WHY MUST I THINK OF HIM
EVERY MOMENT EVERYDAY !! WHY CANT HE JUST LEAVE MY MIND !!
DONT LET ME SUFFER SO MUCH !! WHY MUST HE BREAK ALL THE TRUST HE HAD
GIVEN TO ME ,. BUT WHY CANT I HATE HIM !!! WHY !!! I WANT TO HATE HIM !!
I WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING BOUT HIM !!

I FELT THAT I M SO BITCH !! I PROMISES HIS GIRLFRIEND I WONT CONTACT
HIM ANYMORE , BUT KNOW WHAT !! I MESSAGE HIM !! FUCK !! WHY I SO ITCHY HAND !!
WHY CANT I CONTROL MYSELF !! ACTUALLY IN MY HEART I KNOW THAT HE WASNT SERIOUS WITH ME AT ALL , I KNOW IT . BUT STILL I TOLD MYSELF THAT HE IS SERIOUS
WITH ME HE IS !! HE DID LOVE ME !! I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH !! I JUST FUCKING
HATE MYSELF !!

COME ON! ZOE FACE IT! HE IS NO LONGER YOURS !!

5th January 2009 part 3

WELL I AM BACK FROM CAUSEWAY NOW !!
MANAGE TO CATCH A MOVIE SHOW . 'TWILIGHT"
WHICH HE EVER SAID WANTED TO WATCH WITH MI ,.
HAIIS ME AND HIM STILL HAVE ALOT OF THING THAT WE WANTED TO DO
TOGETHER ,. BUT I GUESS THERE WILL NEVER BE A CHANCE TO DO SO ,.
HMM THE SHOW QUITE NICE , BUT I DON BELIEVE EVER TRUE LOVING
STORY HAPPEN IN THIS WORLD . AND GUESS WHAT EVEN BY WATCHING THAT SHOW
I STILL CAN THINK OF HIM !! THE WAD THE VAMPIRE GUY SAY 'WHAT'
IT DIRECTLY LINK ME TO THINK OF HIM !! HAIIS !! GUESS I A LITTLE CRAZY YA ,.
ANYWAY THANKS TO MY BUSYBODY MUMMY , SHE WENT TO CALLED HIM ,.
DIDNT KNOW WHAT SHE SAID TO HIM , KNOW WAD HE SAID TO MY MUMMY ,
HE PUSH ALL THE BLAME TO ME !! ALL !! THING HE CAME UP WITH ALSO
WANT ME TO SETTLE MYSELF ,. LOLS !! THANKS EH !! MR xxx
BUT I TLD MY MUM THAT EVERYTHING IS BECAUSE ME MY FAULT ,
I DONO HOW TO BE A GOOD GIRL FRIEND THAT WHY I BROKE UP
WITH HIM ,. BREAK ASO BREAK LE , REASON IS ASO JUST A REASON ,.
I WANTED TO HATE HIM !! BUT I CANT BRING MYSELF TO DO IT !
I HAVE FALLEN FOR THIS GUY WHO DOESNT WORTH MY LOVE AT ALL !!
SERIOUSLY YOU GUYS KNOW WHAT ,. I ACTUALLY BELIEVE THAT HE DIDNT TIME ME
AT ALL ,. I TOD MYSELF THAT WHEN HE IS WITH ME HE LOVE ME AND ONLY ME ,.
HE WILL BREAK UP WITH ME PERHAPS BECAUSE I DID SOMETHING WRONG
WHICH HE DONT LIKE IT OR WAD ,. SO ACTUALLY I DONT BLAME HIM AT ALL :)
I LOVE HIM , DONT ASK ME WHY , WHY ATER ALL HE DID I STILL CAN FORGIVE HIM,
REASON IS SIMPLE CAUSE I LOVE HIM , THE FEELING IS SO STRONG ,.
PERHAPS ME AND HIM HAVE CHANCE TO KNOW EACH OTHER BUT DONT HAVE THE
THE FATE TO BE TOGETHER ,. IN THE FIRST PLACE I ALREADY KNEW THAT ME AND HIM
ARE IMPOSSIBLE , BUT I DON WANT RESIGN TO FATE , IN THE END I STILL HAVE TO RESIGN TO IT ,. HE MAKE ME FEEL THAT HE IS WORST DEN ALL OF MY EX ,.
WORST !! DAMN WORST !! I WANT TO HATE HIM AND I WILL HATE HIM ,.
GIVE ME TIME , I KNEW I CAN DO IT !! I TOLD MYSELF DAY ALSO HAVE TO PAST
IS ONLY A MATTER OF PASSING YOUR DAY HAPPILY OR SADLY ,.
AND I CHOOSE TO PASS MY DAY HAPPILY ,. HAPILY WITHOUT HIM ,.
I KNEW I CAN DO IT !!! I CAN !!!!!!

5th January 2009 part 2

WILL BW MEETING JIAQI LATER AT CAUSEWAY POINT TO EAT AND WATCH MOVIES,.
HAIIS , WANNA MAKE MYSELF BUSY VERY BUSY TO NOT THINK OF HIM ,.
I KNOW THAT I CANT DO IT BUT STILL IS BETTER THAN NOTHING ,.
BETTER THAN LETTING MI STAY HOME AND THINK AND CRY ,.
BLOG AGAIN WHEN I AM HOME LATER OR WHAT BA . I MISS HIM ,.
SERIOUSLY IHOPE HE WILL CALL ME TO TALK TO ME ONCE MORE ,.
JUST ONCE ,. I MISS HIM REALLY LOTS !! I LOVE YOU !!
I HOPE TO HEAR HIM CALLED ME 'BABY DEAREST' OR EVEN 'DARLING'
I HOPE TO CALLED HIM 'BABY' ONCE AGAIN . GOING TO PREPARE GO OUT LE ,.
I WILL BLOG AGAIN AT NIGHT OR TOMORROW BA ,.

5th January 2009

WAITING FOR HIS EXPLANATION .
DIDNT WENT TO WORK TODAY AS I GOT A SORE EYE ?
OR RATHER A EYE INFECTION ? GUESS IS BECAUSE I CRIED
WITH MY CONTACT LENS IN MY EYE AND RUBBING AT THE SAME TIME
WITH MY HANDS ,. HAIS , KNEW WAD I THINK I SO USED TO HAVING HIM
GIVING ME CALL IN THE MORNING TO WAKE ME UP . BUT DEN I KNOW IN FUTURE HE WONT GIVE ME ANYMORE MISS CALL OR EVEN CALLS ,.
MAYB I SHOULD NOT KEEP CLING ON TO HIM ANYMORE ?
OR SHOULD I EVEN LISTEN TO MY FRIEND TO JUST LET HIM GO ?
NO POINT HANGING ON TO SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY LET YOU GO ,.
THEY KEEP SAY HE IS NOT A GOOD GUY , HE IS A CASANOVA ,
HE DONT WORTH MY LOVE , HE IS JUST PLAYING WITH ME SAY WAD I LOOK LIKE
HIS EX ALL BULLSHIT STUFF ,.
BUT I BELIEVE HE IS NOT THAT KIND OF GUYS AS WAD YOU ALL SAY!!
SAY I STUPID OR NAIVE , I STILL BELIEVE THAT HE HAS HIS OWN
REASON FOR DOING SO ,.I BELIEVE THAT HE DID EVER LOVE ME !!
ONLY ME MYSELF KNOW HOW HE TREAT ME WHEN I AM WITH HIM !!
NOT YOU ALL !! I WILL WAIT FOR HIM EVEN I KNOW WE ARE IMPOSSIBLE .
I TOLD MYSELF I DONT HAVE TO BE WITH HIM , BUT HE MUST BE HAPPY WITH HER !!
PERHAPS HE IS DOES KIND OF GUY THAT MY FRIENDS SAY , BUT SO WHAT IF I LOVE HIM .

YTD NIGHT HAD A ONE HOUR PLUS TWO HOUS CHAT WITH PHILIP ,
THKS FOR THE CHAT HE HAD WITH ME ,. WE TALK ABOUT RELATIONSHIP THINGS ,
HE TOLD ME THAT TO HIM ' HE DONT HAVE TO BE WITH THE ONE HE LOVE ,
HE JUST WANT TO SEE THE ONE HE LOVE TO BE HAPPY ' , BUT SORRY I CANT DO IT ,
I WANT WAD I WANT , I MAYB SELFISH THINKING FOR MYSELF
BUT DONT HUMAN ARE LIKE THIS AS WELL ?
EVERYONE IS SELFISH !! EVERYONE !!! REMEMBER HIM TEACHING ME
' DONT THINK ONLY FOR MYSELF THINK FOR THE OTHERS ALSO !
PUT MYSELF IN OTHER PEOPLE SHOES , THINK ABOUT OTHERS FEELING ,.
BUT NOW !! HE ONLY KNOW HOW TO SAY BUT DONNO HOW TO DO ?
LIK I SAY , I STILL DONT BLAME HIM . I LOVE HIM !!!
I REALLY LOVE HIM !!! I TOLD MYSELF I CANT BREAK DOWN , I REMEMBER
MYSELF TELLING HIM TAT IF HE LEAVE ME ONE DAY I WILL PROVE TO HIM
LETTING ME GO HE WILL REGRET !! SO I MUST NOT BREAK DOWN I STILL HAVE TO PROVE TO HIM !!! I WONDER HOW LONG STILL I CAN TAHAN ,.
PERHAPS AS TIME PASSES I WILL ALSO GET INTO ANOTHER RELATION ,
MAYBE WITH A BETTER GUY , SOMEONE WORTH ME TO LOVE .
BUT I ALWAYS KNOW I WILL NEVER FORGET HIM NO MATTER WAD ,
OUR MEMORIES , EVEN IS JUST A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME TOGETHER YET HE
MAKE ME FEEL THAT I HAVE YOU FOR YEARS !! I THINK LIKE THIS IS ENOUGH ,.
ATLEAST I ONCE HAVE YOUR TWO MONTH LOVE EVEN IS JUST A FAKE LOVE YOU
HAD FOR ME ,. REALLY THANKS TO HIM !! I NOT TRYING TO BE SACASTIC , JUST A VERY THANK YOU I WANT TO SAY TO HIM FROM MY HEART ,. WHOLEHEARTLY.

4th January 2009

STILL WAITING FOR HIS EXPLANATION .
WOKE UP AT 7PLUS AT NIGHT !
GUESS YESTERDAY DRANK ABIT TOO MUCH .
REACH HOME AT 8PLUS 9 DEN GO SLEEP LE ,.
MET UP WITH JIALONG AND HIS BROTHER AT MY HOUSE
DOWNSTAIR. CHATTED WITH THEM DEN WENT HOME AT 9PLUS,.
AGAIN I THINK OF HIM AGAIN ,.
JIALONG ASK ME DON THINK SO MUCH , LET HIM GO .
NO POINT WAITING FOR SOMEONE WHO ALREADY HAS A GF ,.
I ASO DON KNOW WHAT I SHOULD DO ,
I FEEL SO TIRED REALLY VERY TIRED ! I DON KNOW WHAT I CAN DO !!
ANYONE PLS PLS TEACH ME !! I REALLY WANT HIM BACK TO MY SIDE SO BADLY !! I REALLY DONT WANT TO LEAVE HIM !! I MISS HIM ,.
I REALLY MISS HIM ALOT !!

3rd January 2009

I AM STILL WAITING FOR HIS EXPLANATION.

TODAY I WOKE UP AT 12PLUS ,.
YAYA I KNOW IS KINDA LATE BUT I SLEPT WAS LIKE
ONLY 1 OR 2 HOURS.
I COULDNT SLEEP AT ALL. I MISS HIM ALOTS ,.
YTD SPEND MY WHOLE MIDNIGHT KEEP LOOKING AT THE MESSAGES
HE SEND MI AND READ THE BLOG WHICH HAD ME AND HIS MEMORIES,.
WHY CANT I JUST LET HIM GO ! FORGET ABOUT HIM AND MOVE ON .
WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER SO MUCH WHEN I CAN CHOOSE NOT TO
THINK ABOUT IT ,. HAIS,.
AT ABOUT 2 PLUS PHILIP MESSAGE ME AND ASK MI TO GO TO KAI SHENG
BIRTDAY AT COSTA SAND THERE ,. AT FIRST DON FEEL LIK GOING
BUT HE ASK MI GO DON STAY AT HOME AND THINK SO MUCH .
SO I DECIDED TO JOIN HIM ,. WE MET UP AT 5PLUS DEN FETCH UP
HIS FRIEND AT JURONG POINT BEFORE HEADING TO
KAISHENG BIRTHDAY PARTY.DIDNT REALLY DID MUCH AT THERE ,.
DRUNK QUITE ALOT, CAUSE WE PLAYED
"BIG 2", "YI JI QING HUA . TIAO XIA SHUI .DOM' AND WAD "007" ITS WAS FUN .
AT THAT TIME I REALLY FEEL ALOTS BETTER ,.
DRINK AND DRINK TILL I CANT STAND IT ,.
I VOMITED DEN WENT TO SLEEP ,. THANKS PHILIP FOR CLEARING UP THE MESS ,. WAS THERE TILL 7PLUS DEN HE SEND ME AND HIS FRIEND HOME ,.
DIDNT KNOW WHY , WHEN HE WAS SENDING ME BACK I THOUGHT OF HIM AGAIN!!
CRIED ALL THE WAY TILL HE SEND MI HOME . I REALLLY MISS HIM !!
REALLY !! WHY CANT YOU JUST LET MI SEE HIM EVEN FOR THE ONE LAST TIME.
EVEN IS JUST A 5MIN,. WHY !! WHY ARE YOU SO CRUEL !! WHY YOU CANT EVEN
GIVE ME A EXPLANATION ,. I REALLY DONT BELIEVE THAT WHILE WE ARE
TOGETHER FOR THIS TWO MONTH YOU DONT FEEL A THING FOR MI ,.
I DONT BELIEVE YOU CAN FORGET EVERYTHING BY JUST ONE DAY !!
I DONT BELIEVE !! I DONT BELIEVE !!!
IF HE DONT LOVE ME AT ALL .
WILL HE HAND MAKE SOMETHING FOR MI!!
WILL HE COME LOOK FOR ME FROM EAST COAST TO WOODLAND ,.
AND LIKE HE SAY IF FE WASNT SERIOUS WITH ME . HE WOULDNT HAVE
MET MY PARENTS !! BUT HOW COME EVERYTHING IS LIKE !!!
I DON KNOW WHAT I CAN DO ,. WHO SHOULD I TALK TO !!
EVERY NIGHT IN MY ROOM ALL I COULD DO IS CRIED ,.
THINK OF HIM AND THINK OF HIM ,. BUT HIM ?
I DON EVEN KNOW IF HE IS MISSING ME ? OR ENJOYING ?
HAVE HE FORGOTTEN ME ?
HAVE HE FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING ? THE PROMISES ?
BUT NO MATTER WHAT I ONLY KNOW THAT MY LOVE FOR HIM
IS STILL AS STRONG AS BEFORE ,. I STILL LOVE HIM AS MUCH AS
BEFORE !! EVEN MY FRIENDS ALL ASK MI NOT TO BE STUPID WHY STILL WANT WAIT WHEN I KNOW MI AND HIM IS IMPOSSIBLE ,.
AND WHAT I REPLIED THEM IS : LOVE !! BECAUSE I LOVE HIM.

2nd January 2009

I NEVER BLAME HIM,
NEITHER I HATE HIM FOR DOING THIS.

EVERYTHING ENDED BETWEEN HIM AND ME ,.

IT HAPPEN JUST SO SUDDENLY ,.
I WONT SAY IS HIS FAULT,
PERHAPS WILL LIKE THIS BECAUSE I WANSNT BEING
A GOOD GIRL FRIEND ,. THAT WHY HE LEFT ME ,.
BUT I AM REALLY HURT ,. I REALLY DON KNOW WHAT I CAN
DO ,. I KEEP MYSELF BUSY WHILE WORKING ,.
BUT IS STILL USELESS , HE KEEP APPEAR IN MY MINDS ,.
I JUST CANT STOP MYSELF THINKING OF HIM !!
CRIED AND CRIED IS ALL I CAN DO ,.
SMOKE AND SMOKE IS WAD I CAN DO AS WELL ,.
I REALLY CANT STAND THE HURT ,.
WHAT CAN I DO TO MAKE ME STOP THINKING OF HIM !!
SOMEONE PLEASE FREE ME FROM THE UNBEARABLE HURT !!!
I HAVE TO THANKS JIAQI FOR ACCOMPANYING ME TONIGHT ,.
REALLY THANKS ,. WE WENT TO BUGIS TO SHOP ,.
SUDDENLY A GIRL APPROACHED US AND ASK IF WE ARE INTERESTED TO
DO WAD NEW FACE DE ,. WE GAVE HER OUR CONTACT AND WENT OFF ,.
AS IT WAD STILL EARLY ABOUT 10 PLUS WE WENT TO EAT STEAMBOAT ,
AFTER TAT WALK TO ESPLANADE DEN HOME AT 2 PLUS ,.
AT THE MOMENT WHEN WE WERE AT ESPLANADE , I THOUGHT OF HIM AGAIN !!
I SAW THE FLYER !!
REASON I WILL THINK OF HIM IS BECAUSE SOMETIME HE SEND ME HOME,
HE WILL DRIVE PAST THE FLYER AND ALSO HE SAY HE WILL BRING ME TO SIT
TOGETHER WITH HIM . ARE ALL THIS LIES ? EVEN IF IT IS , IT IS STILL A BEAUTIFUL
LIES ,. I REALLY MISS HIM ALOTS ,.
JUST A REQUEST TO SEE HIM FOR THE ONE LAST TIME , HE ALSO DON WANT ,.
AM I REALLT THAT DETESTABLE ? OR AM I IRRITATING ?
I REALLY LOVE HIM !!