3rd January 2009

I AM STILL WAITING FOR HIS EXPLANATION.

TODAY I WOKE UP AT 12PLUS ,.
YAYA I KNOW IS KINDA LATE BUT I SLEPT WAS LIKE
ONLY 1 OR 2 HOURS.
I COULDNT SLEEP AT ALL. I MISS HIM ALOTS ,.
YTD SPEND MY WHOLE MIDNIGHT KEEP LOOKING AT THE MESSAGES
HE SEND MI AND READ THE BLOG WHICH HAD ME AND HIS MEMORIES,.
WHY CANT I JUST LET HIM GO ! FORGET ABOUT HIM AND MOVE ON .
WHY DO I HAVE TO SUFFER SO MUCH WHEN I CAN CHOOSE NOT TO
THINK ABOUT IT ,. HAIS,.
AT ABOUT 2 PLUS PHILIP MESSAGE ME AND ASK MI TO GO TO KAI SHENG
BIRTDAY AT COSTA SAND THERE ,. AT FIRST DON FEEL LIK GOING
BUT HE ASK MI GO DON STAY AT HOME AND THINK SO MUCH .
SO I DECIDED TO JOIN HIM ,. WE MET UP AT 5PLUS DEN FETCH UP
HIS FRIEND AT JURONG POINT BEFORE HEADING TO
KAISHENG BIRTHDAY PARTY.DIDNT REALLY DID MUCH AT THERE ,.
DRUNK QUITE ALOT, CAUSE WE PLAYED
"BIG 2", "YI JI QING HUA . TIAO XIA SHUI .DOM' AND WAD "007" ITS WAS FUN .
AT THAT TIME I REALLY FEEL ALOTS BETTER ,.
DRINK AND DRINK TILL I CANT STAND IT ,.
I VOMITED DEN WENT TO SLEEP ,. THANKS PHILIP FOR CLEARING UP THE MESS ,. WAS THERE TILL 7PLUS DEN HE SEND ME AND HIS FRIEND HOME ,.
DIDNT KNOW WHY , WHEN HE WAS SENDING ME BACK I THOUGHT OF HIM AGAIN!!
CRIED ALL THE WAY TILL HE SEND MI HOME . I REALLLY MISS HIM !!
REALLY !! WHY CANT YOU JUST LET MI SEE HIM EVEN FOR THE ONE LAST TIME.
EVEN IS JUST A 5MIN,. WHY !! WHY ARE YOU SO CRUEL !! WHY YOU CANT EVEN
GIVE ME A EXPLANATION ,. I REALLY DONT BELIEVE THAT WHILE WE ARE
TOGETHER FOR THIS TWO MONTH YOU DONT FEEL A THING FOR MI ,.
I DONT BELIEVE YOU CAN FORGET EVERYTHING BY JUST ONE DAY !!
I DONT BELIEVE !! I DONT BELIEVE !!!
IF HE DONT LOVE ME AT ALL .
WILL HE HAND MAKE SOMETHING FOR MI!!
WILL HE COME LOOK FOR ME FROM EAST COAST TO WOODLAND ,.
AND LIKE HE SAY IF FE WASNT SERIOUS WITH ME . HE WOULDNT HAVE
MET MY PARENTS !! BUT HOW COME EVERYTHING IS LIKE !!!
I DON KNOW WHAT I CAN DO ,. WHO SHOULD I TALK TO !!
EVERY NIGHT IN MY ROOM ALL I COULD DO IS CRIED ,.
THINK OF HIM AND THINK OF HIM ,. BUT HIM ?
I DON EVEN KNOW IF HE IS MISSING ME ? OR ENJOYING ?
HAVE HE FORGOTTEN ME ?
HAVE HE FORGOTTEN EVERYTHING ? THE PROMISES ?
BUT NO MATTER WHAT I ONLY KNOW THAT MY LOVE FOR HIM
IS STILL AS STRONG AS BEFORE ,. I STILL LOVE HIM AS MUCH AS
BEFORE !! EVEN MY FRIENDS ALL ASK MI NOT TO BE STUPID WHY STILL WANT WAIT WHEN I KNOW MI AND HIM IS IMPOSSIBLE ,.
AND WHAT I REPLIED THEM IS : LOVE !! BECAUSE I LOVE HIM.