6th January 2009

I STILL WAITING FOR HIS EXLANATION
EVERYDAY I BEEN WAITING JUST FOR A SHORT
EXPLANATION THAT ALL I ASK FOR , IS THAT SO DIFFICULT ?

DIDNT KNOW WHY CANT I JUST FORGET ABOUT HIM,
AFTER ALL HOW HE TREATED ME ,. HOWI WISH THERE
A DRINK WHICH CAN DRINK LE FORGET THE PAST ,. HAIIS ,.
WHY MUST HE BE SO JUE !! WHY MUST HE BE SO HEARTLESS !!
AM I THAT IRRITATING TO HIM ? I JUST MISS HIM THAT ALLS ,.
REQUEST FOR A MEET HE DONT WANNA TURN UP ,
A EXPLANATION HE ASO DON GIVE ,.
WHY IS HE RUNNING AWAY , AVOIDING ME WHEN THINGS HAPPEN ,.
I HAVE ALREADY FACE IT ALONE LE , WAD ELSE HE EXPECT ,.
BECAUSE OF HIM , I QUARREL WITH MY PARENTS ,.
MY PARENTS SAY ME DON KNOW HOW BE A GIRL FRIEND STILL
GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP FOR WAD . GUESS THEY WERE RIGHT .
I STILL YOUNG , MUST I REALLY GO INTO A RELATIONSHIP ?
DONT HAVE GUY WILL I DIE ?
WHY MUST I NEED A GUY ?

ANYWAY HAVE TO THANKS PHILIP YTD FOR ACCOMPANYING MI
THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT ,. WE MET UP AT 9 TILL 12 PLUS ,.
HE BROUGHT ME TO WOODLAND JETTY THERE TO TALK AFTER THAT
TO TRIPLE 8 TO EAT STINGRAY ,. HE IS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME WHEN I M DOWN ,.
HOW I WISH 'HE' THE ONE BY MY SIDE ,. I REALLY MISS HIM ,.
TODAY TOOK CAB TO MY WORKPLACE , WHEN TOOK OUT MY PURSE AND
OPEN IT ,. KNOW WAD THE AMULET HE GAVE EME WITH THE SWEET WRAPPER
AND A PHOTO OF HIS FELL OUT FROM MY PURSE !! IS THAT A SIGN !
ASKING ME TO GIVE UP ON HIM ? FORGET ABOUT HIM ?

REMEMBER THE AMULET HE GAVE ME , HE SAY IT WAD THE FIRST TIME OR SECOND
THAT HE EVER GET FOR A GIRL , PERHAPS IS ANOTHER LIE OF HIS ,.
BUT ATLEAST HE HAD THE HEART ,. HAIIS , WHY MUST I THINK OF HIM
EVERY MOMENT EVERYDAY !! WHY CANT HE JUST LEAVE MY MIND !!
DONT LET ME SUFFER SO MUCH !! WHY MUST HE BREAK ALL THE TRUST HE HAD
GIVEN TO ME ,. BUT WHY CANT I HATE HIM !!! WHY !!! I WANT TO HATE HIM !!
I WANT TO FORGET EVERYTHING BOUT HIM !!

I FELT THAT I M SO BITCH !! I PROMISES HIS GIRLFRIEND I WONT CONTACT
HIM ANYMORE , BUT KNOW WHAT !! I MESSAGE HIM !! FUCK !! WHY I SO ITCHY HAND !!
WHY CANT I CONTROL MYSELF !! ACTUALLY IN MY HEART I KNOW THAT HE WASNT SERIOUS WITH ME AT ALL , I KNOW IT . BUT STILL I TOLD MYSELF THAT HE IS SERIOUS
WITH ME HE IS !! HE DID LOVE ME !! I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH !! I JUST FUCKING
HATE MYSELF !!

COME ON! ZOE FACE IT! HE IS NO LONGER YOURS !!