DIDNT WENT TO WORK TODAY AS I GOT A SORE EYE ?
OR RATHER A EYE INFECTION ? GUESS IS BECAUSE I CRIED
WITH MY CONTACT LENS IN MY EYE AND RUBBING AT THE SAME TIME
WITH MY HANDS ,. HAIS , KNEW WAD I THINK I SO USED TO HAVING HIM
GIVING ME CALL IN THE MORNING TO WAKE ME UP . BUT DEN I KNOW IN FUTURE HE WONT GIVE ME ANYMORE MISS CALL OR EVEN CALLS ,.
MAYB I SHOULD NOT KEEP CLING ON TO HIM ANYMORE ?
OR SHOULD I EVEN LISTEN TO MY FRIEND TO JUST LET HIM GO ?
NO POINT HANGING ON TO SOMEONE WHO ACTUALLY LET YOU GO ,.
THEY KEEP SAY HE IS NOT A GOOD GUY , HE IS A CASANOVA ,
HE DONT WORTH MY LOVE , HE IS JUST PLAYING WITH ME SAY WAD I LOOK LIKE
HIS EX ALL BULLSHIT STUFF ,.
BUT I BELIEVE HE IS NOT THAT KIND OF GUYS AS WAD YOU ALL SAY!!
SAY I STUPID OR NAIVE , I STILL BELIEVE THAT HE HAS HIS OWN
REASON FOR DOING SO ,.I BELIEVE THAT HE DID EVER LOVE ME !!
ONLY ME MYSELF KNOW HOW HE TREAT ME WHEN I AM WITH HIM !!
NOT YOU ALL !! I WILL WAIT FOR HIM EVEN I KNOW WE ARE IMPOSSIBLE .
I TOLD MYSELF I DONT HAVE TO BE WITH HIM , BUT HE MUST BE HAPPY WITH HER !!
PERHAPS HE IS DOES KIND OF GUY THAT MY FRIENDS SAY , BUT SO WHAT IF I LOVE HIM .
YTD NIGHT HAD A ONE HOUR PLUS TWO HOUS CHAT WITH PHILIP ,
THKS FOR THE CHAT HE HAD WITH ME ,. WE TALK ABOUT RELATIONSHIP THINGS ,
HE TOLD ME THAT TO HIM ' HE DONT HAVE TO BE WITH THE ONE HE LOVE ,
HE JUST WANT TO SEE THE ONE HE LOVE TO BE HAPPY ' , BUT SORRY I CANT DO IT ,
I WANT WAD I WANT , I MAYB SELFISH THINKING FOR MYSELF
BUT DONT HUMAN ARE LIKE THIS AS WELL ?
EVERYONE IS SELFISH !! EVERYONE !!! REMEMBER HIM TEACHING ME
' DONT THINK ONLY FOR MYSELF THINK FOR THE OTHERS ALSO !
PUT MYSELF IN OTHER PEOPLE SHOES , THINK ABOUT OTHERS FEELING ,.
BUT NOW !! HE ONLY KNOW HOW TO SAY BUT DONNO HOW TO DO ?
LIK I SAY , I STILL DONT BLAME HIM . I LOVE HIM !!!
I REALLY LOVE HIM !!! I TOLD MYSELF I CANT BREAK DOWN , I REMEMBER
MYSELF TELLING HIM TAT IF HE LEAVE ME ONE DAY I WILL PROVE TO HIM
LETTING ME GO HE WILL REGRET !! SO I MUST NOT BREAK DOWN I STILL HAVE TO PROVE TO HIM !!! I WONDER HOW LONG STILL I CAN TAHAN ,.
PERHAPS AS TIME PASSES I WILL ALSO GET INTO ANOTHER RELATION ,
MAYBE WITH A BETTER GUY , SOMEONE WORTH ME TO LOVE .
BUT I ALWAYS KNOW I WILL NEVER FORGET HIM NO MATTER WAD ,
OUR MEMORIES , EVEN IS JUST A SHORT PERIOD OF TIME TOGETHER YET HE
MAKE ME FEEL THAT I HAVE YOU FOR YEARS !! I THINK LIKE THIS IS ENOUGH ,.
ATLEAST I ONCE HAVE YOUR TWO MONTH LOVE EVEN IS JUST A FAKE LOVE YOU
HAD FOR ME ,. REALLY THANKS TO HIM !! I NOT TRYING TO BE SACASTIC , JUST A VERY THANK YOU I WANT TO SAY TO HIM FROM MY HEART ,. WHOLEHEARTLY.
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